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Did I?


Did I made you cry without whiping your tear?
in this lonley live in wich I had your heart in mine


Did I never looked back with love in you heart?
in this fullish game of 'who ever cares more'


Did I walk without looking back into your eyes?
just waiting for a word, a kiss a touch



Did I never showed who you are?
with every touch and heart beat


Did I never told you that you mean the whole world to me?
with every breath and ever beat of my heart


Did I called your name to many times?
people started to belive I changed my name


Did I ever looked back in anger and balmed you?
for not beeing whom I wanted you to be


Did I ever let you belive ?
that I was not next to your soul


Did I ever let you belive that you were alone?
on the boat sailing the horid sea


Did I ever missed to be you reflection?
in the sea water every time you looked


Did I ever said 'if you'd love me, you'll stop?'
even for a little while





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